Day 6: The Diabolical Dilemma Of Letting Go

I’m finally here with another post. It’s almost as if I jinxed everything by saying I would be back soon. We’ve moved onto Day 6 of my writing journey and I’m calling this post “The Diabolical Dilemma Of Letting Go.” It immediately brings to mind the unputdownable books of American author Erle Stanley Gardener, especially his Perry Mason series. Consider, for example, titles such as The Case Of The Runaway Corpse, The Case Of The Caretaker’s Cat, The Case OF The Terrified Typist or The Case Of The Glamorous Ghost. I’ve spent many a school summer vacation reading book after book of this series, until they’ve all blurred together in my memory. So, what is this diabolical dilemma of letting go?

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We are urged to let go of past hurts and disappointments and to not hold on because they are unnecessary baggage that oppress and burden the present moment. Let it go, don’t hold on. And that is very sound advice. But I’ve been thinking of another kind of letting go where, in our pursuit of perfection, we let go of things we build because they are not perfect. I wrote a small poem that expressed this kind of letting go.

Is she
Always wiping the slate clean?
Starting anew
Is she always letting go
Of the things she does?

People say
To hold onto hurts from the past
Is to drag yourself down.
It’s baggage,
Hurtful. Unnecessary.

We must
Let go of that which drags us down.

But there is another kind of holding on
A holding onto things you build,
That anchors,
Without dragging you down.

Is she
Too afraid to hold onto anything?
Is she always letting go?

She knows
To hold on is to take responsibility
For the good and the great
Things she does.
To hold on is to take responsibility
For the mediocre or awful
Things she does.
But it isn’t perfect yet, she says
Let me start again, she says.

There is less of ‘me’
Each time.

What do you think about that kind of letting go, whether in relationships or creative projects or elsewhere in life, where our pursuit of perfection leads us to abandon and/or wait till we have the perfect finished product to show? I’d love to hear what you think. Now, the perfection-seeking part of me wanted to make sure I’d written a perfect poem before I published it. I wrote this poem many months ago and as you can see, I’m still perfecting it. I may never be done but I thought I would share it because I don’t want to wait and wait for that perfect opportunity.

As far as Day 6 of the writing journey, the arrival of 2019 changed everything. More on that on Day 7.